July 8, 2014

For the Days I Want to Hide

This week at church is #WildAnimals VBS and one of our amazing church-members has a wild assortment of animals to share with the kids.

My son is fascinated with new things and has a desire to experience them for all the wonder they possess. Me on the other hand enter into experiencing "creatures" with a timidity that only adults seem to carry. All the children who caught an eye of the hedgehogs ran wildly to them, anxious to pet and hold and seem them in close-up action.

Lately, I've been feeling much like Penelope the Hedgehog. My emotions have me bundled up, hoping that my gruff exterior will prevent anyone from penetrating my guard. Even my husband, who's desire is to be the one earthly person I confide in most, has been feeling the effects of my prickly temperament lately.

Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid. John 14:27

If you are feeling the same way I am, like you want to run and hide from the world... remember that peace like none other is only available from the Giver of all life. Do not look to the world itself for comfort, because you will never find what you are looking for! This is a lesson I'm still learning, but can attest to the powerful strength God's word has over my life and emotions.

My advice to those who are feeling like me is to allow the prompting of the Holy Spirit be your guide. We know there will be seasons of retreat, where we need to look deep inside at the root of our emotions, but those times are temporary, as is this entire life we are living on earth. Don't allow resentment to set in and burrow itself in your heart - you will only be setting yourself up for failure if you do. Instead cling to what is holy and righteous and good in this world, letting Christ be your barrier and your lifeline especially on days you just want to hide.

*Possibly linking up with these blogs today!

July 7, 2014

A Moment to Reflect

This Independence Day came and went like all others.

We gladly rushed here and there, viewing in all it's glory what the remembrance of this day has to offer.

Historic eloquence, peaceful reminders, and wild fury - this is America, the land that we love!

My husband, their father, and a son too, fought a good fight to keep this picture about freedom and love. Grateful isn't enough, thanks could never be many, but this picture will endure the memories that it provides.

From our family to yours, we hope you enjoyed a happy 4th of July!

July 2, 2014

Incapable of Love Actually

I'm joining Holley Gerth this morning for Coffee for Your Heart - and I'm so thankful for community writing as it gives us all a place to share without fear of condemnation.

Tired. That one word describes so much of how I feel right now! This tiredness has been growing for so long, even I'm tired of being tired.

I got this wild hair this week to start a new blog called "Love Actually," that was to be an intimate look into how I love and what this love that God pours out onto His children should transpire to. And I say wild hair, because I'm too tired of fighting love to write about it.
Tired is making my heart hard towards love; giving and accepting. But thing is I want to love like Christ first loved us, however I just don't know if I'm even capable of love. That phrase, "love knows no bounds," keeps coming to mind, and I just can't seem to comprehend how God is loving this unlovable person at this moment!
There's a disconnection between knowing what love is and how to give and receive it. I desire to be a lavish-lover, one who dreams of loving and pouring out onto another soul, yet it doesn't come and my heart breaks because I feel incapable of love actually (which coincidentally is truthful love). I see my own suffering as a direct result before I'm able to see the effect it has on another....
I am going to be talking a lot about love in the next several weeks; my hope is that won't scare you away. Comfort and encouragement is what I'm needing at this moment, so I hope you will pray with me as I dig deeper into this issue.